Normal or Abnormal

I’m different. In many ways.

I’m kind of abnormal in others’ terms, I would say; no way close to how people around me, think.

‘My kind’ of doing is not as per what is expected out of me. So different that, sometimes black and white seem similar!

I’m never looked along norm, for what I do; always, either looked up or looked down.

I’m never a part of the packed-normalized-bell-curve-area. I don’t even think, I fall in the curve, first place.



If you ask me, if I’m happy the way I’m? My answer is a ‘No’.

If you ask me, if I want to fit into that curve? My answer is a ‘No’.

If you ask me, if the way I’m, is the right way? My answer is ‘I don’t know’.

If you ask me, what I’m up to? My answer is ‘I don’t know’.

If you ask me, what I’m now? You will have to wait for the answer, for an extended tenure.

If you ask me, if I would answer? My answer is ‘I don’t know’.



I know what would be running in your mind. Yup, I know; that I’m confused.

So deeply confused that, I’m confused about why I’m confused and what I’m confused about!

Wow! That came in a flow!


Somedays, I want to pursue everything; somedays just lay lazy.

Somedays, I’m up and running even before sunrise; somedays even at 8AM I’m sleepy.

Somedays, I’m a great host; somedays, I don’t want anyone around.

Somedays, I’m very loveable; somedays, I’m the least wanted.

But mostly, I’m the opposite of what I’m actually supposed to be.


On a special day, I’m lazy and sleepy; on a boring day, I’m all awake.

During an event, I go paranoid about hosting; on a normal day, I look forward to guests!

On a normal day, I’m abnormal and during an abnormal day, I’m either very very abnormal or very normal; the opposite of how I’m supposed to be.


I seriously don’t know if I have to be worried about this or am I just acting the usual way, I would – abnormal on a normal day?


By the way, what did I want to write about? Is it normal to forget it or am I abnormal, my actual normal??